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 Part 14"I'm fine, Hank." Jean waved away the gadget he held near 
                    her ear. There were no physical injuries because she had held 
                    Rogue away telekinetically. In fact, Hank might have been 
                    better off examining the other woman's cardiovascular tract 
                    because as a last resort, Jean was prepared to induce a heart 
                    attack or stroke in an assailant. She had done so to Rogue. 
                    Granted, she didn't seem to notice, but it was affecting 
                    her actions and reflexes. It did not matter if her heart 
                    was able to withstand the fury of Storm's lightning. Betsy 
                    would say I was crazy, but Rogue was just following the dictates 
                    of her mind, the dark part that lashed out at mine. Not that 
                    I'd be able to kill one of my teammates without a damn good 
                    reason. "Be that as it may, Mrs. Grey-Summers, I'd like to discern 
                    it for myself. Now, please hold still. Your behavior is en 
                    par with Jubilee's." He pushed her hand out of the way and 
                    continued hurrumphing to himself over the wavy lines scrolling 
                    on the screen of the gadget. After a lengthy study he compared 
                    it to her record on the main computer. "Really, I'm fine. She didn't even get a hold of me and I 
                    know my mind better than you do." She slid off the table in 
                    exasperation. Scott and his worries were ready to pepper her 
                    with questions. He's concerned for me, and even more concerned 
                    for the team, which means helping, not abandoning her, whether 
                    she wants help or not. I need to make him understand that 
                    their confrontation and the position it left me in looked 
                    worse than it was. I can't have her flying off right when 
                    I'm getting somewhere. Hank muttered something under his breath before readjusting 
                    his glasses. "Your Polygraph is normal and as there are no 
                    physical injuries-" "Great, I'll be going then." He planted himself between her and the door, crossing massive 
                    arms and glowering behind his spectacles. "What exactly is 
                    the rush? Is there anything else I should know? I will 
                    be the one held responsible for a misdiagnosis." "Hank, I don't want to be rude and I realize this is your 
                    job, but Scott is outside that door gathering more ammunition 
                    as we speak. I need to convince him to lay off Rogue before 
                    she runs." "Yes, I gathered from your distracted expression." Pursing 
                    his lips against a knuckle, he asked, "What are you treating 
                    her for?" She quirked her lip, "Sorry, con-" "-fidential," he finished for her. "Never hurts to ask, especially 
                    among friends. Do you believe she would act so rashly as to 
                    flee?" "Well, with her, you never know. She thinks what happened 
                    is more her fault than it really is." Rogue was emotional 
                    but her behavior, like any other person's, usually had rationale. 
                    Taking a moment out, Jean searched for Rogue's location and 
                    mood. "She may or may not jump. Right now she's in her room 
                    beating herself up. As for my mental state, everything seems 
                    fine, so Hank, please get out of my way before Scott has a 
                    fit." Hank sniffed audibly. "Surely he would not think me so ignoble 
                    as to seduce his own, and may I add, charming, wife?" She sniffed back at his non sequitur. "Buttering me up won't 
                    work. Move." "Very well. You are more experienced in dealing with mental 
                    trauma than I, but I don't recommend telekinetic juggling 
                    for the next couple of hours. If you are truly determined 
                    to 'treat' Rogue, you have my support and assistance." His 
                    forehead wrinkled and his glasses slipped down his nose as 
                    he looked at some cables stapled to the wall. When his oblique 
                    query brought no response, he hurrumphed again for good measure 
                    and stepped aside. Jean rolled her eyes at her old friend, but he did have a 
                    point. The matter at hand was hardly confidential anymore. 
                    Scott would demand to know what was going on. Hank would need 
                    to know if something went wrong and Betsy knew in order to 
                    act as back up. That was when it occurred to her that Remy 
                    might need to know as well for his personal safety. I don't 
                    know if I'm seeing things where there aren't any, but even 
                    if he's not a psi, his powers extend to his mind in some way. 
                    I can just imagine "Gambit Fricassee". Should have never let 
                    her get away with that last night but what was I supposed 
                    to do? Yell at her like her mother? She glanced back at her longime friend. All this secrecy 
                    was foolish. They were a team even when a matter did not concern 
                    the team. It was unfair of her to treat him like an ignorant 
                    villain and she knew it. Let's be honest. Half the reason 
                    I'm tiptoeing on egg shells is because I'm not sure how much 
                    of what I saw in her mind was psionic and how much was a mirage 
                    caused by other facets of her power and I don't want to look 
                    stupid. She knew from experience that not everything she 
                    saw on the astral plane was automatically psionic in nature. 
                    Everything from purer forms of energy to random thoughts of 
                    normal humans could be seen or felt. "All right." Hank beamed at her. "Yes?" "We were talking about her past, her power, so on. While 
                    I did want to know those things to pinpoint an exact traumatic 
                    incident that might have caused her to willfully or subconsciously 
                    'lose control' of her power, I was using that as cover to 
                    do a psychic examination and pull the proverbial fast one 
                    on her. What I didn't count on was that rather than simply 
                    being turned 'on' her power might be running on auto. Next 
                    thing I know Shadow King's little sister pulls the rug out 
                    from under me." She shook her head. "Stupid mistake. 
                    I guess we're all entitled to some of them." "And that excuses her?" His tone was not accusatory so much 
                    as curious. When he crossed his arms, the sleeves of his lab 
                    coat pulled taut and bunched at his elbows. "It does for me. I acted in a way, for whatever reason -- 
                    which is what I'm more interested in -- she found deeply threatening 
                    and reacted instinctively to nullify." Now, how the hell 
                    did she know I was touching her mind? She could not think 
                    of another case where Rogue had made that type of preemptive 
                    strike. Various telepaths had contacted her to no ill effect. 
                    In fact, some had even controlled her power externally. But 
                    were they manipulating her power or her desires? She suspected 
                    the latter. The Professor's case file listed no telepathic, 
                    telekinetic or empathic abilities. The precognitive power 
                    was not only weak, but acquired. Still, there was something 
                    present in her psychic self. And Mystique also implied 
                    that Rogue never liked telepaths. Might be worth a try to 
                    ask her some more questions along that route. Questions. She absorbs people, becomes them, yet a telepath 
                    can commandeer her body. But if she is them, how can they 
                    control her? Unless she mimics or copies. If so, why would 
                    a portion of her own mind turn on itself unless her problems 
                    are far worse than I thought? How does she put it? 'For all 
                    intents and purposes'. Some part of Rogue's power had 
                    to go into reining in and storing her victim's psyche. It's 
                    not just genetics or electrical information because the psionic 
                    self is also transferred. There's more to a mind than just 
                    neurons and bio-electric waves. That same part that enabled 
                    Rogue's mind to create boundaries between her memories from 
                    someone else's, which she could and did do, had to be sensitive 
                    to a person's psi-self. Otherwise, not only would she be 
                    a complete nut case by now, but there would be no way she 
                    could so consistently absorb the 'essence of a person'. 
                    The Professor mentioned no such thing. "This may be none of my concern, but is there anything with 
                    which I can help you?" "No, no, I'm just upset and a little bit disappointed in 
                    someone." Jean bit her mental tongue. Seeing her as an 
                    aggressor won't help and that might be my problem. I view 
                    contact as an attack. She tried again to think of some 
                    mention of a psionic facet of Rogue's power and came up with 
                    nothing. There's no way the Professor could have missed 
                    it. Damnit. "At Rogue?" "No, I'm afraid not. The Professor." "It's not fair to blame him for the obvious. Charles was 
                    a busy man. They both did their parts and, apparently, failed." 
                    He kept his gaze slightly downcast as he slipped the EEG in 
                    his lab coat pocket. Lacing her fingers together, Jean shook her head in denial. 
                    "I'm not." The Professor had a long history of benign deception 
                    with Onslaught only being the most dramatic example. He 
                    knew she was blocking her ability and proceeded to compound 
                    that problem in the name of 'giving her time'. I suppose it 
                    made sense. She was in a psychologically fragile state, there 
                    was no established trust between them and how could he foresee 
                    his own travels? But what did he find? Did he discover whatever 
                    it is that she wouldn't talk about? Something about her childhood? 
                    Not that everything boils down to horrible traumatic events 
                    but it's true a lot of the time. "I'm not blaming him, I'm just remembering that he had a 
                    habit of doing what he believed was best for someone. I'm 
                    not faulting him for not fixing Rogue's power, if you want 
                    to look at it that way. It's certainly not his job to fix 
                    powers like they're illnesses or something. Especially since, 
                    though we're a school, he gathered us to fight for his Dream. 
                    It's just that.... It looks like he left something out. I 
                    guess I feel a bit guilty. I don't know how she conducted 
                    herself before I rejoined the team. Maybe she was so passive 
                    that the Professor thought she was all right. But I do know 
                    he bent over backwards to help me overcome my own traumas 
                    and insecurities. He taught me like a daughter." Hank did not say anything but his thoughts were clear as 
                    he rested his jaw in a loosely curled fist. "I know. Maybe it was just the fact that she'd been raised 
                    by two very knowledgeable mutants and didn't need certain 
                    basic training. Maybe, somehow, she had basic psychic training 
                    already but I just can't shake the idea...." "That perhaps his actions were deliberate; that he may have 
                    witnessed something in her mind that caused him to 'give her 
                    time'? There is also the matter of a questionable upbringing." "Hank, I'm surprised you'd take that side." He raised his eyebrows dryly. "Someone had to say it. Our 
                    resident marauder certainly dotes on her foster mother, but 
                    nevertheless, that woman is not only a terrorist but is possessing 
                    of an unreliable psychological state." "Maybe." His eyebrows rose so high his glasses slipped down. "Statistically 
                    speaking, yes, there is a chance she is sound and sane." "Oh, come on, Hank. Most people are a little bit crazy but 
                    they only live sixty to eighty years. Think about it. Instead 
                    of a young woman, like she presents herself, imagine, excuse 
                    the expression, an old biddy. I'm willing to bet half of it 
                    is just an act." Hank tipped his head up and scratched the underside of his 
                    jaw in contemplation. "An eighty year old crazy grandma. I'm 
                    quite positive that Ms. Darkholme would not appreciate that 
                    erudite extrapolation. Furthermore, no one knows her age." Jean grinned, tsking in agreement. "I won't tell if 
                    you won't tell." Politely forgetting their minor argument, he grinned toothily. 
                    "Now, gathering by your commentary on simultaneous neural 
                    patterns, I believe you would appreciate access to any EEGs 
                    checking for any distinct abnormalities?" "You wouldn't happen to have one?" Chewing on her lip for 
                    minute while waiting for him to rummage through the older 
                    records, she answered, "I was thinking about something she 
                    told me about Carol." The information she wanted to know was 
                    important in some way she could not pinpoint. The professor 
                    wrote, 'two diametrically opposed thought patterns'. Two, 
                    not one. It's definitely not meant to be a merge. Even in 
                    such an extreme case her mind, or power, did a pretty good 
                    job of keeping their minds separate which backs up my earlier 
                    theory. There was a way for the exact safety mechanism 
                    meant to keep her in control of her own self to be turned 
                    against her if she lost subconscious control. That's it. 
                    The ability to compartmentalize -- for the preservation of 
                    identity -- is also what allows her mind to slip into the 
                    schizophrenic and MPD states. His lip compressed so that only the bottom canines poked 
                    up. "What exactly do you need to know?" "In the Professor's initial report, he says she had two distinct 
                    neural patterns but that was a psychic perception. In reality-" "In reality, it is quite possible that she in fact possessed 
                    one neural pattern and the Professor's perception was purely 
                    telepathic in nature. I understand." "She keeps saying that she could accidentally absorb my mind 
                    and destroy both of us. She's obviously scared that she actually 
                    becomes another person. I thought that excuse was just a habit 
                    but, working with her, I don't know anymore. She really believes 
                    it. I need to convince her that it's safe to let me into her 
                    mind because the more keyed up she is, the more difficult 
                    it is for me to do anything. So, is that a valid assumption 
                    on her part?" "Mm." "Do you have a theory?" "Not quite yet. Notions, if you will. I was studying the 
                    RNA fragments that, er, float about in her cellular structure. 
                    Which remain and which fade seems to have no relation to when 
                    they were 'absorbed'. If I had to guess, I'd say that they 
                    were the results of a biologically selective permanent process." "Sounds more like notions to me, but you won't spill the 
                    beans? Not even if I ask nicely?" He shook his head. "Not until I'm sure. A malformed theory 
                    can be a destructive thing." 
 He trusted Jean but first and foremost he was a scientist. 
                    That meant waiting to present his ideas when he had properly 
                    researched them. The Professor is absent, no drug regime 
                    I have given Rogue works and any existing technological means 
                    merely suppress the effects of her X-factor in a rather crude 
                    fashion eventually causing permanent genetic damage. The 
                    majority of records on their various members were public but 
                    others were encoded to entrusted to only him or the Professor. 
                    Even Scott is under-informed at times. Jean was not 
                    a clinical psychologist but she did have a degree in the field 
                    besides being a veteran telepath. With a bound, he sailed over a large computer console and 
                    delicately tapped at a keyboard with clawed fingertips. The data he recovered was incomplete. Some had been destroyed 
                    over time by successive attacks on the mansion, most by Sinister 
                    and then Phalanx. More had never been collected. She's 
                    nearly as stubborn as LeBeau and Logan when it comes to finding 
                    a way to avoiding anything official. He smiled. Her temporary 
                    blindness had been a near blessing in giving him the opportunity 
                    to collect tissue samples and take various scans to update 
                    her record, although he suspected that she had known exactly 
                    what he was doing. The downside was that "Rogue" as a biological, 
                    genetic and political individual did not exist. He had to 
                    credit Mystique for that. "I have extremely sketchy data here. The psi-scans you mentioned, 
                    how many are there?" "Seven." "That's it?" "Not only that, but most of them are useless. Two of them," 
                    she jabbed two fingers in the air, "two, tell me something 
                    useful. The rest are just random dreams, images the Professor 
                    saw or theories he had. They aren't supported, there's virtually 
                    no reference to her early history beyond him mentioning something 
                    he doesn't want her to know, there's nothing I can verify 
                    and circumstances have changed. I'm sure it all made sense 
                    to him but it doesn't help me." She rested her chin in her 
                    palm, curling her fingers over one eye, then shrugged. "Personal 
                    notes, really." "Fascinating," he commented dryly. "While she may be a charming 
                    individual, she seems to share a distaste for laboratory settings 
                    with several other members of our esteemed group. My apologies." "Great. So you can't help?" "I didn't say I couldn't help. I said her record is spotty." 
                    He continued scrolling hopefully until encountering, barely 
                    marked, an electroencephalograph reading collected by Kurt 
                    shortly after Rogue joined the team. The chart meeting his 
                    gaze was an ugly mass of careening peaks and valleys. If he 
                    had a control reading or any type that could be considered 
                    normal for her, there might be a way to analyze it. I don't. 
                    This could be normal or bizarre in the extreme. "I'm sorry. 
                    All I have, to put it succinctly, is a mess. The Shi'ar enhanced 
                    polygraph might be able to help, but I fear the record is 
                    outdated. All I could possibly do is theorize." "A mess as in two separate patterns running interference 
                    with each other?" "I truly can't say. It might be. It might not. I'm sorry." "What about Cerebro?" Opening his mouth to dispute, he smiled. "Possibly, it does 
                    do an automatic EEG doesn't it?" He tugged on his lapels. 
                    "Cerebro, bring up recent polygraphs of designate Rogue." ##"Unable to comply."## "Why?" ##"Requested records have been locked."## Jean raised an eyebrow in query. "By whom?" ##"Designate Rogue."## He rearranged some pens in his front pocket and raised his 
                    eyebrows at Jean. Hank did not buy her insinuations. The Professor 
                    had no motivation to hide data on Rogue's power and this only 
                    proved that it was Rogue herself who was withholding information. 
                    "I do have the authority to override the restriction to ensure 
                    future recordings." "No. I'm already reading her mind. It would be kind of unethical 
                    to do that too." "Mm." Hank decided Jean was reacting more on emotions than 
                    logic but he did not feel like spurring a debate on ethics. "He had the time to teach me, Elisabeth and Cable. I want 
                    to believe you with all my heart, but like everyone else, 
                    she always has a reason." "In her mind." "I don't want to argue about it, Hank." She switched topics 
                    suddenly. "How about her genetic data? One DNA pattern, fragments 
                    of a second, one successively altered? Anything at all?" "Perhaps, although, as I mentioned, I hesitate to make any 
                    judgments." He punched up another window with a brief overview 
                    of her genetic coding. It was nothing too complex and only 
                    pinpointed certain flagged mutations. Unlike Cerebro, the 
                    genetic bank was his domain. Out of habit, he reviewed the 
                    mind-boggling assortment of mutations Rogue possessed. Like 
                    all mutants, she had one gene so mutated it was termed X-Factor. 
                    Unlike most mutants, many other of her other genes had also 
                    acquired minor abnormalities as a result of her power. An 
                    entire group of these, Kree in origin, were responsible for 
                    Carol Danver's abilities. She even bordered on possessing 
                    extra chromosomes, which he found mildly disturbing. "Yoo hoo, earth to Dr. McCoy." "Er, my apologies." He leaned with one arm braced on top 
                    of the console and sighed, debating how much he could reveal. 
                    "She changes in small ways that are occasionally cumulative 
                    in effect. Extrapolating on current data, it's possible that 
                    at some point she will cease being herself, figuratively speaking. 
                    Many of these acquired mutations survived Siege Perilous. 
                    Others are more recent. The majority of them fade with time. 
                    Nevertheless, I am forced to admit that her genetic code is 
                    permanently changed." "No offense, but that's not what I wanted to hear. On the 
                    upside, it sounds like Carol really was a freak accident because 
                    if Siege Perilous split the other persona off then it probably 
                    wasn't supposed to be where it was." "That's pure specul-" Jean moved suddenly to face him with narrowed eyes. "You're 
                    not telling me something." "I am not telling you a great many things." He smiled faintly. Jean shrugged gamefully. "So I see. Thanks anyway. I have 
                    to get going."  "My pleasure." Privately, he tapped his lower lip with a 
                    pen. There was no precedence for Rogue's mutation. He hoped 
                    he had not misled Jean. 
 Mystique planted herself directly in Remy's path back to 
                    Rogue's room and they played that game in which one person 
                    attempted to dodge past the other person while trying to avoid 
                    bodily injury. She kept blocking him and his eyes must have 
                    flared because she raised a mocking eyebrow. "Get out of my way, madam." "Oh, so formal." She stayed in his way moving quickly and 
                    easily, not giving any ground. He did not believe in hitting out of temper but he was close. 
                    He wanted to know what had happened to Rogue, why Jean was 
                    hurt and agitated and what Scott was doing bouncing from one 
                    foot to the other in front of the MedLab. Rogue could get 
                    angry at him for offering sympathy or support because that 
                    implied weakness but that was no excuse for him not to try. 
                    Especially since that anger would dissolve as soon as she 
                    overcame her inhibitions. He feinted past Mystique but her 
                    arm slunk into a tentacle and twisted him back around. Even 
                    as he snapped out his bo he realized how ridiculous this confrontation 
                    was. "What exactly are you going to save her from, LeBeau? Three-eyes? 
                    He's just doing his job. Me? I'm her mother. You can't save 
                    her from me. Besides," she bared the tips of her teeth, "do 
                    you really want to throw down right now, right here?" She 
                    let go of his arm. They both remained in combat stance. He was faster. He was aware of motion beyond the visual. 
                    He had spent his childhood on the streets trained to survive 
                    a guild war and that was not counting his chief power. Mystique 
                    had triumphed over half a century through true war, cold war, 
                    espionage, terrorism, assassination and more enemies than 
                    he could shake a stick at, literally. He might be faster but 
                    she was more skilled and experienced and she had a power too. 
                    Perhaps even a direct bio-kinetic charge would not kill her. He flipped his bo behind his shoulder, snapping it down and 
                    putting it back up his sleeve. "Grab a coat." She led them outside in silence. It was ironic. People called him a devil because of his eyes 
                    but at least he had eyes, not glowing slits. Mystique could 
                    be looking at anything: the knoll, the forest edge, the tarp 
                    covered pool, the tiny specks that were crows or her own feet. 
                    She was probably watching him but made no movement, not the 
                    slightest twitch or quiver. She moved, a smooth crane of her head, like a security camera. "Dat's where she get it from, isn' it?" She ignored his question. "Would you prefer French?" "My French is bad." "Your English is worse." "Yes," he obligingly replied in French. She acknowledged him then, a direct look of approval that 
                    told him more about Rogue than their entire conversation had. 
                    It told him why Rogue never complained when he accidentally 
                    hurt her with an offhand comment or even an intentional one 
                    to see if he could get a rise out of her. She simply turned 
                    away from him. Except once, when she had been blind, weary 
                    of his presence as her guide. That was a long time ago as 
                    far as moments of honesty went. Even in Seattle she had opted 
                    for an exit. "You're talking about Rogue, I assume?" "Yes. The way she controls her emotions and becomes infuriated 
                    when she loses control." The way she lashes out at those 
                    she cares about, unsure of how to trust, how to open up. I 
                    can see you embarrassing her for that, shaming her. "You 
                    probably never lose control." Mystique smiled faintly. "Trouble in paradise?" "You think that's funny? That you handicapped her? That all 
                    she knows to do when she feels something is hurt someone, 
                    hurt herself?" "That sounded like a criticism." "Just making an observation." "Yes? Let me make one for you. What good would it serve her? 
                    What good is wanting something you cannot have? She cannot 
                    touch and no matter how idealistic you are, that does not 
                    change. Before you go making any more five minute assumptions, 
                    I did the best I could for her." She huffed in amusement and 
                    flipped her hand. "Oh, I know that sounds implausible coming 
                    from me, but if there is one thing I know more than how to 
                    get what I want, it's how to deal with being apart." Her lips 
                    parted as if she would say more, then, catching herself, she 
                    looked with great fascination at nothing at all. While his suspicion increased, his residual anger drained 
                    away into curiosity. Though never face to face, he had seen 
                    this woman once on Muir Island. When he first saw Mystique 
                    in the hall today, he assumed, from what he knew of her terrorizing 
                    background and the few stories Rogue had told, that she would 
                    rage and threaten him. He thought that by goading her he might 
                    catch her off guard but she had answered his question. Out 
                    of all the things he expected, frank honesty was not among 
                    them. Perhaps the honest truth disturbed him more than her 
                    response in itself. How did someone desensitize a person to 
                    loneliness? "Why can't she touch?" "One lump or two?" She shook her head. "Will wonders never 
                    cease. Do you really think I know why?" "I was not being literal and yes I do think you know because 
                    if you did not you would have told me instead of avoiding 
                    the answer." "Naturally. You think that is what she wants?" "I know it is." "Pheh." He ground his teeth silently. "Then what does she need?" "Talk is the only way she has of touching other people safely. 
                    It is the only way that makes her comfortable. You have to 
                    get her to talk which, as you have likely discovered, is no 
                    easy task. Could you make that sacrifice?" She curled her 
                    lip, a shock on her impassive face. "Oh, I know. You think 
                    you are making a huge sacrifice by committing to her, to staying 
                    celibate. But there is a way out for you. There is no way 
                    out for her -- I've tried, Xavier has tried -- or would you 
                    ask her to wear a collar like an animal just for sex?" "Lady, I do not know what kind of man you think I am, nor 
                    do I care, but I love her. You were doing what was best for 
                    her? To keep her from getting hurt? So am I. I am no animal, 
                    but you on the other hand...." He clenched his jaw, maintaining 
                    his composure to match hers. That was the way to keep her 
                    respect. Control freak. "I've talked to her until my 
                    face turned blue and it came to nothing. She is a human being. 
                    She needs to have the same basic things everyone else does." "She's a mutant like the rest of us." "A human being and has feelings. You cannot amputate them. 
                    Not her, not you, not anyone. Whatever you taught her, it 
                    was something wrong." "A romantic pig, to answer your question. You think love 
                    can save the world? Solve her problems? If it could, she would 
                    not have any problems." She crossed her arms. "I would have 
                    seen to it." She brought up that point with pride, this mothering dictator. 
                    She was not like his father who had made few attempts to rein 
                    in his wild behavior, his schedules, and his friends. Jean-Luc 
                    was permissive but watchful. Mystique was not watchful so 
                    much as knowing so that she gave the impression of not caring. 
                    I always knew my father cared and that made me care when 
                    I was disobeying. He knew without asking that Mystique 
                    had come down on Rogue like a ton of bricks at the slightest 
                    infraction, parental indifference followed by strict reprimand. 
                    Consistently unpredictable. Mystique's technique would 
                    have forced Rogue to use habitual self-control. And to 
                    be suspicious of people who care, like me. If Jean-Luc 
                    had done that to him he would have rebelled and gone back 
                    to his pseudo-family on the streets. But Rogue had no one 
                    to go back to or maybe she did but didn't want to. He 
                    recalled her tale of Cody. Or they wouldn't let her come 
                    back. Who else? She mentions now and then the woman Destiny 
                    who lived with them. She doesn't say grandmother or aunt or 
                    nana, just the name. He intuited that there had been a 
                    relationship between Destiny and Mystique but the thought 
                    was strange for several reasons. First, he had difficulty 
                    believing that Mystique could love anyone enough to commit 
                    her life to him or her. Second, he felt ashamed to admit the 
                    idea made him uncomfortable which was very strange. He could 
                    not help it. While he had been raised in such a male dominated 
                    society and then imparted the Clan's Catholic values, the 
                    Church was corrupt and the Clan members were hypocrites. He 
                    had rejected that religion as much as any Catholic could. 
                    The values remained, intruding on his common sense and tendency 
                    to accept most anything after the nature of his childhood, 
                    or lack thereof. He was puzzled by this unexpected hangp. He had encountered 
                    so many types of families and sexual relationships that one 
                    more was nothing. So why were his morals suddenly giving a 
                    twinge? Because Mystique and Destiny weren't any couple; they 
                    were Rogue's parents and that made it personal. What a strange 
                    realization that, suddenly, something that he believed was 
                    irrelevant mattered when it became personal. The only other 
                    woman's family he had cared about was Belladonna's. Now he 
                    cared about this other family, this pragmatic to the point 
                    of immorality mother, the saintly pirate of a foster brother 
                    and an elderly precognitive that had died shortly before his 
                    arrival. That was when it occurred to him that Destiny was 
                    dead and he was disappointed to have never met her. Maybe 
                    she was the missing half the puzzle, the counterweight to 
                    Mystique's teachings. "So did you ever pretend to be the father, too?" He had not spoken in so long that Mystique started violently, 
                    craning her head to stare at him. He thought she would kill 
                    him or at the minimum rip his spleen out through his nose. 
                    Fortunately, she did neither. She blinked a few times in quick 
                    succession and started to shake in silent laughter, then broke 
                    into guffaws. Giving one last snort, she smiled widely. "Do you realize 
                    that no one has ever asked me that?" "No one?" "No one." "So did you?" "Ask Rogue." Her answer effectively sobered their mood. "I'm asking you. You know she won't tell me." "Oh, come now. She never tells you anything? Have you ever 
                    tried a direct question?" "I've tried many questions. Will she get hurt?" He knew she 
                    would understand he was referencing her interaction with Rogue 
                    at breakfast. "Are you going to save her?" "I would do anything for her." "And I repeat: Are you going to try and save her?" "Is this the part where you threaten to kill me if I hurt 
                    her or get in the way of your plans?" Mystique struck a pose and stroked her chin in consideration. 
                    "No, I think we shall skip that part. As my daughter likes 
                    to insist, she is a grown woman and can take care of herself. 
                    As much as I care, she has a brain. If you are using her and 
                    she cannot see that...." She shrugged laconically. "Any beating 
                    that needs to be done will be administered by her." "So if you do not care about love, if you do not care if 
                    she makes a mistake, why are you here? Why are you wasting 
                    my time with insults?" "Look, boy. I do not like you. I do not like your frivolous 
                    attitude. I do not like your political and social ties. I 
                    do not like your manners. I do not like your clothes. I do 
                    not like your grooming habits. I'm not impressed by your charming 
                    charisma or your thin attempts at suavity. In short, I do 
                    not trust you. Unfortunately, Rogue does. Furthermore, I know 
                    that despite your reputation, you are good to your word. Foremost, 
                    as the last remaining successor to the primary family of the 
                    LeBeau Clan, you must be aware that you are in a relationship 
                    with my heir." "In other words, this is an acceptance speech." "LeBeau, on the chance that you might be listening, I am 
                    not angry at you; I'm angry at that nincompoop that calls 
                    herself my daughter, but do not push your luck. Now answer 
                    my question. I am not that easy to distract." "Am I going to save her? I would do anything for her...if 
                    she asked. What are we avoiding the issue? You obviously want 
                    me to do, or not do, something, so let us make a deal." She frowned for a millisecond glancing down and he had the 
                    disturbing vision of a cigarette materializing from her hand. 
                    She lifted it in the air and raised an eyebrow. "Light?" He eyed it. "Won't that hurt?" "What would hurt?" "Lighting it." He gestured at her arm. "Or is it real?" "Oh that's disgusting. Of course it is. Do you have a -" He touched his fingertip to the end of the cigarette, lighting 
                    it with a small charge. "You're welcome." "Thank you." She exhaled in contentment. "Now, what were 
                    we discussing?"  "A bargain." "And why exactly should I make a deal with you?"  He waited a moment, mimicking her nonchalance by rubbing 
                    a knuckle along his jaw. Mystique let her eyelids droop and tapped her cigarette once. "When I saw you on Muir Island, I did not know you were Rogue's 
                    mother, nor did I care. But, after a while, I thought it would 
                    be prudent to...familiarize myself with your history. No offense." "None taken." "I learned many things. In reverse order: I know that you 
                    were caught by X-Factor because Onslaught -- the Professor 
                    -- considered you a threat," he raised an eyebrow before continuing, 
                    "and I know most of what you did with them because it is official 
                    record if not public. And I know that you led Freedom Force, 
                    which was the Brotherhood by a different name for a different 
                    cause, but likely for the same profit. And that you have at 
                    least two acknowledged children. That you were a spy during 
                    World War Two and several of the wars afterwards. Official 
                    records end before the forties but there are rumors and those 
                    who remember. Among the guild we have long lives. You have 
                    managed to keep your secrets well. To be honest, I was worried 
                    that you had employed me at some time." "I prefer to keep it that way. My personal life is of no 
                    concern to anyone except myself. As for you, I did consider 
                    it. If you were not paired with my daughter, I may have at 
                    some point." "But that is precisely what I meant." "I know. Rogue is perfectly content to allow me to puppet 
                    her in fifty directions but she made it perfectly clear that 
                    she will not tolerate interference in private life. I respect 
                    that. You, this team and its dream are...her hobbies." He could not stop his brows from shooting up and his violently 
                    surprised reaction. "Hobbies? This is her life!" "No, this is a pleasant illusion. She cannot fully believe 
                    Xavier's ambitions any more than you can stop being a professional 
                    thief. Like it or not, I instilled my values in her at a very 
                    early age. No matter how hard she fights it," she slit her 
                    eyes until they were nothing more than yellow lines, "she 
                    cannot help but return to center. Nor will I lose another 
                    person I love to someone else's cause." "Just your own?" "I have only one cause, LeBeau. It is survival." "Then survive this. I was not done talking. It came to me 
                    that certain military products, derived from 'secret' government 
                    technology, were being mass produced and sold on the streets. 
                    When I investigated, some of the items seemed familiar and 
                    I recognized them from...certain databases." "Spying on X-Factor were you? How noble and chivalrous of 
                    you. I am sure it was for their own benefit. Carry on." "I saw that certain records had been accessed at a certain 
                    time by remote system." He lifted one shoulder giving a falsely 
                    baffled frown. "Of course, that is not proof in a court of 
                    law, but I am sure you would agree that under those circumstances 
                    there was only one person who had the access and motive." "Theoretically speaking. Yes." She looked less smug than 
                    she had a few minutes ago though not enough to please anyone 
                    with more than an ounce of pride. "Very well." "Good. What is this all about?" He waved in the direction 
                    of the house. "You mean her surly temper?" At his nod, "She is balking 
                    over attending current consequences of past actions. Normally 
                    I would take care of it. I have drawn the line. She is a big 
                    girl now. She will do it herself or she will die." He caught his breath with instinctive alarm, thinking at 
                    first that her words were a direct threat before realizing 
                    that she was referring to consequences catching up with Rogue. 
                    It seemed that his entire ribcage squeezed in on itself and 
                    he found himself attempting to loom over Mystique. He knew, 
                    though, that no matter how convenient it would be to blame 
                    here even if the past events were her machinations, the current 
                    situation was perversely well-intended. He forcibly uncurled 
                    the fingers of his hands. "And you want me to avoid interfering?" "I expect it, from one professional to another." "Yes, but she is not a professional." He could see the agreeing displeasure on her face. "Unfortunately 
                    true. She has become lazy. But the foundation remains. She 
                    will rebuild quickly or...." For the first time, Mystique 
                    had no words. Her face went flat. "Or you will let her die," he muttered in contempt. "I will be disappointed." It was said with so little cockiness or facetious humor that 
                    he understood that what she was telling him had nothing to 
                    do with his suggestion of extortion. It was an offering. One 
                    professional to another... Could it be that Mystique, 
                    someone he had heard stories about as a teen, was willing 
                    to respect him? Possible, but I'd better use enough humility 
                    to stay on her good side. "Disappointed, eh? Is she not 
                    old for a rite of passage?" "Yes, she is. She ran away at about the time I was going 
                    to test her for the last time. Now, perhaps, she is too old 
                    to view my actions with equanimity. Regardless," She crossed 
                    her arms, another gesture he recognized. "I have been alive 
                    longer than I expected and I do not feel like dying soon. 
                    I have been through my share of partners but only cared a 
                    few times. I have had two children that I lacked the instinct 
                    to or interest in raising. One grew up to be a madman and 
                    is dead. The other was recruited by Xavier. I doubt that was 
                    accidental. I made one last attempt with Rogue. Unless a miracle 
                    occurs and I change my mind.... Sometimes I am tired." Her 
                    shoulders dropped. "If she truly fits my current assessment, 
                    she is not fit to be my heir. Therefore, I hope I am wrong 
                    but I tend to be correct." "Heir to blood money?" "And your money is clean also?" Was she acting, crying crocodile tears? She could be attempting 
                    a subtle manipulation to hook his sense of sympathy or justify 
                    her behavior or it could all be honest. The fact that she 
                    was unveiling information in the face of an admittedly weak 
                    threat suggested that her motive was benign. Still, he had 
                    a hard time accepting that Mystique would be truthful and 
                    blunt. It seemed so real but no, it had to be a trick. Except, 
                    her logic made sense. "You would just disown her?" "In essence." He shrugged. She sneered, a derisive vicious thing. "Of course it means 
                    nothing to you. You would need to have children first to understand." "I bet Rogue would like children." "Perhaps. Speaking of sex-" "No." "I was not going to proposition you. For all you know, you 
                    have already slept with me." "What would Rogue think of that?" "My dear daughter probably assumes you have and with most 
                    of the female population as well. Of course, she forgets you 
                    are Catholic." "Formerly." "I was Catholic once when dinosaurs roamed the earth. It 
                    is nothing to be ashamed of. But...it can cause certain complications." "Meaning?" He resisted the urge to chuckle and her not so 
                    subtle implications. "Meaning I have not changed the subject I started a few minutes 
                    ago." "Ah, I see. You think I might see some sort of ideal in her 
                    and that causes me to treat her less like a woman and more 
                    like a lady on a pedestal?" Just because he had grown up underprivileged 
                    did not mean he had not been educated; it did not take a rocket 
                    scientist to understand social psychology. As another bit 
                    of common wisdom stated, the stupid crooks died young and 
                    he was not dead yet. "Exactly. From what I heard, you two are accepted as a couple. 
                    Yet, at breakfast, I noticed my daughter was ready to bolt. 
                    You talked circles around her and all she did was squirm. 
                    It was pathetic. I have not been that disappointed in her 
                    for...for at least a month." "Maybe it was just you." "Oh, that never stopped her before." His eyebrows rose marginally. "I cannot imagine her being 
                    that overt." "You cannot?" "Not truthfully." "Mm. She has become less so over time." Raven regarded him 
                    with consideration. "There were times when she was younger, 
                    I had to scold or restrain her." She sniffed primly. "Not 
                    that she could have done too much damage." Remy chuckled in agreement. "Oh? Gracious. Are you being uncreative? Or is it that you 
                    do, as I suspect, see her as a conveniently untouchable woman?" He crossed his arms loosely in irritation. "What is that? 
                    A trick question? First you tell me she does not need to consider 
                    love, hope and a future. Then you want to know if I desire 
                    her?" Of course he did. If he let his imagination wander ... When 
                    she moved or stretched he wanted to slide his hands all over 
                    her body. He wanted to cup her breasts in his palms, to feel 
                    the soft resiliency, to see how sensitive they were, if he 
                    could make her shake, to feel her stomach tremble, to touch 
                    and stroke and what kind of noises she would make when he 
                    curled his hands around her hips gliding smooth until she 
                    begged. Would she beg? Would she be able to fight if he cupped 
                    her mons, so sensitive to pressure, curled fingers to slide 
                    against hot flesh, wet? His hand itched at the thoughts. "Oh, for God's sake." Mystique threw up her hands. "Do you 
                    think you could stop fantasizing long enough to answer my 
                    question?" "I am not-" "Oh yes you are." She made no effort to hide her sly amusement 
                    and nodded towards his erection, visible through his jeans. 
                    "Very unsubtle of you." "Yes, very unfortunate how that betrays me." He cleared his 
                    throat. "You were asking?" She smiled blandly. "Specifically if you have acted on it." "Should I have?" "Are you trying to ask me what Rogue's sexual habits and 
                    quirks are?" She waggled her eyebrows at him. "Well..." "You are. That is understandable. She must have done something 
                    to pique your curiosity. Certainly took long enough though, 
                    which is very strange, all things considered. You have not 
                    gone impotent, have you?" "No!" He started to yell, then closed his eyes, raising his 
                    hands palm out, briefly. He chuckled at himself. "No. What 
                    happened was, in the beginning, she was very skittish. I saw 
                    that she was uncomfortable with sexuality. I thought maybe 
                    ... I do not know what I thought. But I decided to be a gentleman 
                    and when she saw that, she did what she does best." "Blinded herself." "Yes. And..." "And now you are trapped in that dance. I see. Back to the 
                    subject at hand, you are curious?" "Mm. Last night she was drunk." "And she jumped you." "You are not surprised by that." "No, of course not. If you were a sexually active but repressed 
                    twenty-two year old who became intoxicated, would you not 
                    also?" "True. Either that or slip into a bitter depression." She pressed her chin against her collarbones and sighed low. 
                    "Does she drink often?" "No. Very rarely." "Good." "Why?" "Why.....why why why. You know what?" "Hm?" "If you have survived this long as a Guild thief, I know 
                    you are a mature adult. I will trust you to have common sense." 
                    Mystique threw down the stub of her cigarette and ground it 
                    into the snow. "Her biological mother was an alcoholic. Perhaps 
                    that was isolated. It is often inherited. Rogue herself has 
                    addictive tendencies I found very useful when she was a child. 
                    When I say addictive, I mean she attached easily to behaviors, 
                    routines and even substances. All I had to do was put her 
                    into a pattern of behavior and she would continue it willfully 
                    on her own. The negative aspect was that I had to watch her. 
                    I had to watch what she attempted to smoke or eat. And I had 
                    to watch how she used her power." He could not help the instant dislike he had towards Mystique 
                    for admitting the plain truth that they both knew: that she 
                    had openly used Rogue. He understood that those actions were 
                    in the past, that Raven was apologizing in her own way, but 
                    to admit to such a thing was more taboo than to do it. That 
                    Rogue was weak in such a way was news to him. He knew she 
                    was slightly hedonistic, but who was not? Idealistically, 
                    denial lead to spiritual purity. In reality, denial tended 
                    to breed avarice. The greatest surprise was that her power 
                    might somehow be addictive. As far as he knew, Rogue hated 
                    using her power, did not like the active effects of it and 
                    tended to apologize for using it. But if she knows that 
                    she is, then that makes sense. But she could just be scared 
                    of losing control. That's what she always complains about 
                    losing control... He halted, darting a quick look of confirmation 
                    at Mystique. She smiled thinly. "Not so pleasant a thought, is it?" "She is stronger than that." "No she is not." "Yes-" "No. I was paraphrasing Irene's own words." "I thought you did not believe in fate?" "Did I ever mention Irene was a fatalistic anarchist? 
                    A more complex way of saying, things will go as wrong as possible 
                    eventually." "And that they are meant to go wrong." "Yes, entropy, but enough philosophizing. I suppose you want 
                    to know about Rogue's power?" "I know what it is." "You know her version of what it is. Would you like to hear 
                    Irene's?" "Go ahead." In truth, he was intensely curious. "She is like me but instead of copying only what she sees, 
                    she can copy everything with which she merges. Anything that 
                    is living information. Cells, genes, molecules, bio-electric 
                    currents. Whatever she wants so long as it is alive in some 
                    fashion. You need to imagine a highly evolved amoebae. But 
                    first, she does not know what she wants. Second, she is cowardly. 
                    Her power will not kill her but her own fear can." He frowned sharply, rolling his shoulders. "Her power motivates 
                    her in some way, yes, to cause this implied addiction?" "Naturally. If you do not eat, not only does your stomach 
                    hurt, you feel a desire to eat. If you do not breathe, you 
                    experience pain and fear. If you never run, your muscles grow 
                    weak and stress your skeletal structure and then you cannot 
                    run when you need to run. Like so. I imagine it is a strain 
                    for her not to use her power." Remy nodded his head, content for now to play along. "Then 
                    it becomes a greater strain to control it when she does?" "Yes." "But you have not answered my question." "Ah, forgive me but you should be able to-" He nodded soberly. Her power sates her in some way that 
                    she may even be aware of. That ignorance is dangerous. But 
                    what could any of us do about that? Ororo and Scott are tied 
                    officially. And Rogue. If Destiny's right, she can't aim to 
                    the side or pull back the claws a bit. She's a predator like 
                    a cobra, not a wolf. The only compromise she can give is to 
                    hold still, but that's not fair to her. His prioritizing 
                    amused him but it was true. His friends and loved ones mattered 
                    more to him than team ideals. "I could help her." Mystique smiled softly and tipped her head away from him. 
                    "Would you?" He had the impression she was as pleased as she looked. This, 
                    after she had specifically claimed to avoid his interference. 
                    She was a funny woman. "After I convince her that she will 
                    not hurt me." "Good. Oh, and to make this official, if you hurt her I'll 
                    kneecap you." "No thank you but I appreciate the offer and give my most 
                    profound and humble thanks for your loving welcome to your 
                    family...Maman." Raven sighed low in her throat, nearly a growl of warning. 
                    "Do me a favor and cooperate, boy, but do not call me your 
                    mother." 
 Rogue sighed and sat down, tapping her fingers together. 
                    The last few minutes of her conversation with Jean were a 
                    blur. She remembered falling, hearing Jean step closer and 
                    an invasive burn, as if her skin had been dipped in acid. 
                    It had felt physical in force, although it probably had not 
                    been. But I wasn't touching her. Jean Grey had been 
                    in mental contact, no more, no less. The telepath had assured 
                    her that she would never scan her thoughts without her permission, 
                    but she had been. And Betsy was here. She said something 
                    about spying on me. She chewed on the inside of her cheek while reviewing the 
                    next unclear memory. Jean's eyes were dilated with stifled fear, maybe for a moment, 
                    then narrowed in determination. A viselike telekinetic grip 
                    pulled at her own arms, wrapped around her body like a noose, 
                    crushing. The back of her mind was aware of those details 
                    but in the foreground was anticipation. Something she wanted 
                    badly was out of reach behind the psionic wall she could not 
                    see. She could feel the resistance created by the wall but 
                    it was nothing. It was like gelatin. It took a second or two 
                    longer to reach through that weak barrier. It felt like 
                    I reached out with my hand and tried to grab something. 
                    That realization flickered through Jean's face just as Rogue 
                    felt her heart stop, quite literally. It was right then that 
                    the most bizarre sensation had hit her: Indignation, the thought 
                    that how dare anyone stop her. Then, something else hit her 
                    and she flew into the wall. The simplest answer was that Jean was right; that her power 
                    had a distinct psionic component that had been activated by 
                    the telepathic contact. Upon triggering, it had spun wildly 
                    out of control due to disuse. The concept was mentally numbing. 
                    If it's true, then I'm completely out of control. The last 
                    of it's gone. I'd worked so hard. So hard for that control. 
                    I'd fought it every day and now? Now, nothing. Rogue had always been satisfied with the self-initiated test 
                    and observation system concerning her power. Longer I hold 
                    on, more I get. Simple. It did not explain why she absorbed 
                    certain memories from one person, nothing from the next, information 
                    from another and emotion when she least wanted it. It did 
                    not explain Carol, what she had chalked up to be a freak accident. 
                    Course, some folks say there's no such thing. Is it an 
                    accident to try and murder someone but change your mind at 
                    the last second? Does it count? Not even the Professor 
                    had questioned her methods or conclusions. Not to my face. 
                    Probably suited his purpose not to spend too much energy on 
                    my problems. She immediately chided herself. They were 
                    her problems, after all. But I don't understand what happened. I felt the same 
                    things I do when absorbing someone's mind. She corrected 
                    herself. Her body had not changed in any way, nor, for that 
                    matter, had she actually taken memories or emotions. No, 
                    this was like...like...right before. Except, why was I so 
                    angry? She pulled a hand through her hand and brought 
                    it down on her desk with a thump. But I don't feel anything 
                    before touching. Nothing. My power don't work until there's 
                    tactile contact. I don't sense anything at all. She could not feel other's minds like a telepath or even 
                    Remy did. The only extrasensory ability she had was the mild 
                    precognitive ability which was not hers. It was difficult 
                    to comprehend. She had spent her whole life trying. Maybe 
                    she's right. Maybe I should compromise a bit. It wouldn't 
                    be that humiliating to use an inhibitor. Bobby put up with 
                    it and Cyke still does. She found herself staring at the 
                    small piece of metal and plastic Jean had dropped on the floor 
                    and she reached down to pick it up. "Rogue?" Her head jerked in the direction of Remy's voice as her hand 
                    reflexively curled around the inhibitor. She sent a weak smile 
                    at him as he padded over. "What y'got dere?" Well, at least he's being to the point. "Inhibitor." 
                    He took her hand and she obligingly uncurled her fingers. He tried to meet her eyes and she ducked away. His hands 
                    settled on her shoulders. "You wan' talk?" "No." Absently, she shrugged his hands off and twisted and 
                    turned the inhibitor between her thumb and palm. "Ya sure?" His voice did not condemn but the gentle prodding 
                    remained. "'Bout what?" Uncomfortable with his proximity and worried 
                    that her power, or whatever, would attack him, she got up, 
                    putting the chair between them. Obstinately, he followed her. "Anyt'in'." When she remained silent, "Ya gon' be okay?" "Ah'm fine." She held the inhibitor as gently as she would 
                    cradle a piece of crystal and studied the distance between 
                    them. For every step he took, she took one back until he stopped. 
                    She saw his puzzlement, his hurt. It was disconcerting to 
                    realize she could and had hurt him with a gesture. It was 
                    frightening that she cared after using her power so deliberately 
                    on him the previous night. Remy abruptly smiled and pushed the chair out of the way 
                    with the side of his leg. While she was not as adept a con artist as him, she had lived 
                    with a shape-shifter for many years. Even the slightest changes 
                    in behavior and manner could be telling. Remy was obviously 
                    up to something. She cocked her head slightly, sidling. "How's 
                    Jean?" He shrugged, idly advancing until she backed around the corner 
                    of the bed. "Hank chased me out of the MedLab." "Don' spare me the truth. Ah've had quite 'nough of that 
                    lately." She saw the reluctance on his face before he spoke. "She's a bit woozy but okay. Talkin' up a storm wit' Scott 
                    last I heard." He made a shifting approach, almost stalking 
                    her. "So what y'gon' do now?" She felt her eyebrow twitch, an involuntary mannerism. Despite 
                    herself, her pulse accelerated and she almost smiled. He was 
                    not asking what her plans for the day were. He wanted to know 
                    how close she would allow him to come. The question did bring 
                    her mind back to task, though. Shadows were lengthening. The 
                    sky becoming amber. Funny, she did not remember talking that 
                    long to Jean. Between the moment she looked away and looked 
                    back, Remy got within three inches of her. He was entirely 
                    too close. "Ah have t'go out." She tried to edge around him but he moved 
                    to intercept. This was extremely frustrating. Frustrating 
                    because she wanted him close, she wanted him to touch her, 
                    to touch him back, to play without words, but his timing could 
                    have been better. "No," he scolded gently, catching her hand as she tried to 
                    shove him away from her. "Come back here." He cupped the back 
                    of her hand in his palm and held her wrist with the other 
                    and she felt the warmth of the touch but soon it became oppressive, 
                    painful. "Gon' go out f't'ree months?" "No!" She lifted into the air and, shaking her hand free, 
                    she put greater distance between them. She did not want what 
                    had happened to Jean to happen to him. "No. Ah meant for tonight, 
                    maybe tomorrow. Ah, well, as you would say, have business 
                    t'attend to. It's not that Ah di'n' want t'tell you, but this 
                    is somethin' Ah have t'do on my own, an' Ah mean it, so don' 
                    y'go followin' me. Seein' how Ah don' follow you...." Hysterics 
                    were just below the surface. She needed to focus and stop 
                    gibbering. There were too many conflicting emotions occurring 
                    at once. Remy tipped his head obliquely studying her. "What're you lookin' at?" "Your breasts." "Uh." Now she knew without guessing that he had a card up 
                    his sleeve. "That's, uh, nice. Have you been talkin' to Mystique?" He grinned. She was torn between leaving now to avoid any misunderstandings, 
                    flirtation and possible power accidents as well as her own 
                    persistent curiosity to see what he would do next, if she 
                    allowed him. While she was worried, this was the first instance 
                    in a long time that he had started to flirt with her. But 
                    that was kind of my fault. She ducked her head, smiling 
                    sheepishly. "Interestin' conversation, Ah take it?" Still grinning, he knee walked across the bed and she almost 
                    laughed, backing away. "Ya just dyin' t'know, aren't ya?" "Well, Ah reckon she said some pretty crazy shit. Want t'know 
                    what Ah have to offset is all." "Like ya say, she told me some very interestin' things. I'm 
                    t'inking about them." Reaching into his front pocket as if 
                    to remove a cigarette, he murmured, "If it matter dat much 
                    t'ya, I won't bother ya." "You're botherin' me right now, hon." "Am I?" he lilted back, simultaneously, deliberately, grazing 
                    his fingertips from her knee to hip. She dropped rather loudly and ungracefully onto the floor, 
                    stumbled back. "Keep your hands to y'self, dangit." "No." "What?" "No. Ya heard me. From now on, if I can cop a feel, I will." 
                    The look on his face dared her to challenge that statement 
                    of intent. She repeated his phrasing back to him, doubtfully. "Hey, that was your phrasin', not mine, chere, but I don' 
                    t'ink ya really mind, 'cause if ya did, ya wouldn' gi' me 
                    so many opp'tunities." I never said that, did I? When did I ever say that? 
                    "So you're tryin' t'blame me?" As she snipped back, he pushed 
                    off the bed, neatly placing a leg between hers. She hastily 
                    stepped back further. "What the hell did she tell you?" "Only a lil' bit. I'm doin' dis because I'm tired of dis 
                    business of almos' but not quite 'cause 'I wan' to but I can't'. 
                    I'm sayin' dat you can an' I don' mind." She opened her mouth to say something, anything, but felt 
                    herself blushing instead. "Uh.... Tha's a li'l' bit direct, 
                    Remy." "Way I hear it, ya used t'be pretty direct y'self." She looked at him sidewise. "When Ah was a kid, yes. Ah grew 
                    out of it." Oh man, what did she tell him? How far back 
                    did she go? She turned in a circle, pacing uneasily, and 
                    wished for more common sense. When her power had first manifested, 
                    she had been insanely frightened by it. With Mystique's coaching, 
                    she had learned to prize it. Then she had learned to enjoy 
                    it. One mental mutant power, one young teenage girl, add 
                    hormones and blend. When Mystique was the one to reprimand 
                    excessive sexuality, a person knew they were overboard. Rogue 
                    winced. "Ya were, weren' ya? I bet you were as bad as me. Difference 
                    was, ya couldn' do anyt'ing 'bout it." He brushed beside her, 
                    leaning over her shoulder, and ended up facing her. "Geez, y'don' have to rub in it, okay?" He may as well have 
                    shoved her. She jerked back, shaking her arm, rattled by more 
                    than his words. It was happening again. This time, the raw 
                    electric frission was tangling with arousal and what scared 
                    her was that she could barely tell the difference. She danced 
                    away from him, watching his face. A series of thoughts flickered across it, ending in a slight 
                    half-smile. He cocked his head so his hair fell over his eyes. 
                    "I won' hurt ya dis time. She tol' me the t'ings ya never 
                    did. She tol' me 'bout ya power, what it is. An' I'm tellin' 
                    ya, it's okay. It's okay for ya t'touch me inside." She was too shocked to anything but stare. "Ya wan' me to?" "Ah wan' you t'jus' stop!" Flustered, she fussed with her 
                    hair, walked behind the fauteuil and stopped short of opening 
                    the closet door. "Lord, Ah can't deal with this. Can't an' 
                    not right now. Can you please..." Lord, have some guts 
                    girl. Momma would laugh her fool head off if she saw this. 
                    She squared her shoulder and faced him but closed her eyes. 
                    After a minute, she looked at him. "Remy, right now I need 
                    t'do my own thing an' Ah don' know if y'un'erstan' what you're 
                    sayin'. 'Cause if you did..." She shook her head. "But will ya let me?" She held her face in the L between her fingers and thumb, 
                    sliding two fingers down to graze her lips. She made her choice 
                    before she could panic. "Yes. Ah will. But you make sure you 
                    tell Jean an' Scott. Ah don' wan' them getting all reactionary 
                    'bout it." "Bien. An' I'll hold ya to dat." Adeptly, he changed the 
                    subject as it became distinctly uncomfortable. "Ya sure ya 
                    don' need any help. I got friends dat could pull some stops 
                    for ya." She doubted he was aware of his skeptical tone or the slight 
                    superior rise of his brows that attempted to hide his pain. 
                    I hurt him. She wanted to tell him everything about 
                    the Bauers, Mystique and a past mission gone wrong. She wanted 
                    to have faith in him but she could not afford to let him care. 
                    The irony did not escape her. She almost told him that he 
                    better not follow her but he might construe that as a challenge. 
                    "Ah'll tell Logan where Ah'm goin'." She had absolutely no 
                    intention of telling Logan anything. "So, what? Ya trust him but not me? Ya think I get in y'way?" "Ah know y'would," she said softly. "Prob'ly." He remained there, blocking the way between the 
                    bureau and bed, trying to silently discourage her. "Look, gi'me an hour. Ah'll talk t'Logan and get my stuff 
                    together, an' then...we'll work somethin' out." She was painfully 
                    aware of the space between them as she clenched the inhibitor 
                    in her hand, careful not to crush it. "All right?" Remy looked down at the cigarette he was rolling between 
                    his fingers, a troubled frown, a questioning look up and another 
                    frown. He nodded slightly before throwing the cigarette into 
                    the waste bin. "Dat's fine."   Continued in Chapter 
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